VALENTINEs day

Wow, its already my 22nd valentines day to date and still no valentino there to steal my breath away... Hahahah... I have been successful in meeting my agendas in life but I have never been successful in meeting my emotional needs a.k.a THE LOVE LIFE.

Hahahah... Believe it or not, I have not entered into a relationship ever since i entered this whole world full of lovers everywhere.. Well, sometimes i get the feeling that i am not a likeable person or rather i am not the typical "girlfriend" kind.

Well, I want to say that I really don't care and just ignore the situation but that will be pure hypocracy in its high level. I dont care and i'm making a blog about it!! hahahah.. who am i kidding????

I have been changing looks trying to see if looks really do matter in finding a prospective lover but i think my body is not cooperating.. See, the effects of being a bummer is starting to hit my body big time... And not only that, my choice of foods to eat is getting numerous.. I just can't stop and give up the food...

Since i have been unsuccessful in the looks I've tried changing some bits of my personality, but i guess i can never ever change who i am.. And i have also learned that someone will bear and accept that .. I just don't know who the heck he is and where the hell is he... Is that guy still on earth???

But in fairness, me being alone this valentine season is not such a bad thing after all. I have learned so many things about myself and learned that it is really hard for me to have someone who treats me like a girl, because i know i'll just dislike that idea thinking it will be too unfeministic... (yeah right)

And maybe, just maybe, if I would find myself being in a relationship.. (hmmm.. when will that day be???) I guess i would be with a man who will accept me as his bestfriend for life(hey im not looking for a husband ah??) someone who will accompany me thru times where i just want to be at home playing lazy and stupid games with myself. Someone who is also willing to learn new things in life. Hey!!! I'm not advertising for wanted perfect man for me aren't i???

I remembered one professor told me, this was way back high school, if one is not being courted by a guy or have been in a relationship (this message was for girls) before 18 something is wrong with her.. And that bothered me until 19 because i am still single, obviously, and tried to get over it until now..

Of course i have recoverd and knew that nothing is wrong with a girl if she isnt still in a relationship before 18. I just happened to accept that maybe I was meant to be single because God knew i could still carry on without being in a relationship I was too independent for a girl. And also He made me knew how to value and love the freedom that I have. :D

DRIVING

I've always wanted to learn how to drive.

But i'm scared of the road....

Haaay.... Hope I could learn how to drive somehow..

I'm already old enough, when will I learn how to drive???

Maybe i should start now....

I'll just turn on the radio... To cool me up

I'm gonna get my feet ready...

Time passed by so quickly that I had to stop...

oh well, I guess I have to imagine driving again tomorrow.... hahahah...

products of abi's nonsense imaginary stories...