Believing You

When a classmate of mine died a couple of years ago, I decided to live.

I never owned a dog, so I took one from a friend and then it died. While grieving, I saw this ad from friendster. The next wednesday, I got the most charming dog there is, Masud. He still lives up to now.

I told myself to get the most lucrative job there is. If I take on the minimum salary wage, it will not be enough to feed my family and to buy anything that I want. Even if its no longer connected to my field. And so I entered the call cetner industry.

Ten months past, and everything became all so routinary to me. I got the job that will still let me go shopping and go places, but it drove me to live an abnormal life. Working at night and holidays, even at christmas, and then sleeping by day. I got sick of it. I prayed for a sign if I should resign or not. A month later, I became human again.

Back then, I decided to come back to my field and accept my fate of not having the call center salary I was enjoying before. As long as I sleep at night and I enjoy holidays at home, I would be more than happy to get the job. I got more than I wished for and worked for that company until today.

Through those years, I have thought that life can give you what you want as long as you believe that you will get it. I don't know if you believe in the law of attraction, but I see this as a Grace from God. I may not see Him here but He makes sure that I know He's just around giving me what I really need.

Last May, I already accepted our fate and then decided to let go. But, He gave me an extension. Now, I don't know if I can still let go or not. But I know He'll find a way.

Please don't let me lose myself again. I want to live without regrets, I know you'll give me another way to do this. You always will. I trust you.