Unfair

If I am being unfair to you, I am so sorry
Every minute, every hour that I know I am not with you, I go crazy
Feeling I am supposed to be there, but I am not. I will not be.
I know we are supposed to be friends, but I can't be friends with someone I deeply loved.
I will just fall over and over again
And I will just hurt myself more
I need to protect myself, I thought I can do it with us being friends
But not, I can't, my heart can't, my mind can no longer tolerate
This is my sorry letter to you
I am so sorry I am doing this
I need myself, my sanity and my heart intact
I cannot do this with you around
You somehow could change my sanity in a blink of an eye
You are far more insane mind you but you somehow make me make up our gap
I am not putting the blame on you
This is on me
I am sorry for putting more distance between us
You are doing the right thing, keep on doing it
I need this distance
I am so sorry for being selfish
In time, when you realize it - what I've done - I hope you forgive me
I have the best intentions
Anyway, I still care I just don't show it, I hope you will get more better
I hope and wish you all the best
Also, I wish you wisdom
To learn and to accept things easily
The world is not against you and it won't be in a million gazillion years
Always take care of yourself, I wish you find someone who will take care and will love you more than I could
And I wish, by the day he/she comes you will be man enough not to let her/him (whatever your preference will be) go.
And you will do it because of the thought of not having him/her for the rest of your life kills you.
I hope this will be my last post about you
I will be moving on from now on
I am so ready
Please wish me well
Till we meet again