And then there is acceptance

Well, it's been a month since my bout with depression. I guess, I've come in terms with everything that is happening with my life. I have learned that what I really need is some air and acceptance.

When I look back, the first half of 2012 went by so fast. I did not even notice that my third anti-tetanus vaccine shot is already due. This has been one rollercoaster year. It is quite obvious on my previous posts. But well, sometimes your mind and heart gets a bit confused with new things like these and this is an opportunity to learn more about myself.

It's not something big really, if you compare it to other people who have gone a lot. When I say a lot, it's something that hits the most basic needs, mostly driven by lack of money and resources. I have been fortunate, I really am. I recognize this everyday and sometimes I think that it's just not for me. And it's sad realizing something so good shouldn't be yours.

Well, I've accepted this fact. I am now looking forward for something - opportunity and distractions. Thank God, I have a lot now - free fun runs, requests for pictorials (prenup and maternity), friends who would ask me to meet them and now, the return of my cousins (one from province, one from another country) and unplanned travels with friends. All of these came in the right time.

Now, how do I move on from these. I have to resolve these issues, I have just come in terms with it. I think it's halfway solved. But it's still a long, long, long waaay..

Well, I will figure it out soon. I know God will find a way. :)