Single detached

“Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions; reality can be obtained only by someone who is detached. ”
― Simone Weil

Nowadays, with my current schedule, I realized that I am slowly being detached to the people I once thought I could NOT live without.

You see, I have been given different opportunities, to run, to read more books, to play badminton, to become an take the job of my boss for 2 weeks, and to travel due to work. Also, all of my closest friends are sooo far away, my family is in limbo - I don't see them much often, and if we do, we all would quarrel, so it's better not to talk to them.

So with that, I am alone, fending for myself. If I feel bad, there are some people i could talk to, but not those whom I am comfortable with, this is why I write. It's good though, it gave me the feeling of being detached to them. I am detached but of course I would love to see them again, just the thought of them being not here is something I've accepted. And they're no longer part of my weekend routine but, I make sure that if they're here, I will see them. In a way, I am still attached but in my everyday life, I am detached. Seems weird?

Little by little, I am detaching myself to the trivial things. I guess it's easier to live if you don't get attached. Less expectations, less hurt. I just have to classify which is trivial, which is not. I am sooo bad at it.

With this, I feel a bit independent. I don't have to answer to anyone, I can eat alone, I go around the mall, and even watch movies alone, I go places, make my own plans, meet different people, run, make blogs at fastfoods, go aikido, etc. i know one day, I will be oversaturated of this, if it becomes a habit. But heck, i think this is exactly what I need right now. It is to be detached in order for me to know what needs to be retained and what needs to be left astray.

One by one, my reality starts to kick in. Yes, if we attach ourselves we only allow us to be vulnerable. We become weak, but if we detach ourselves we get to prioritize what matters and become independent from all what could hurt us.

Well, this is just my opinion, so far it works for me. I'll let you know if I change my mind.