I just finished Water for Elephants today, not so much of a good book, but there's a character there named August. He has paranoid schizophrenia (which I don't think he has, bipolar personality, probably) and he is charming when he's in good mood but totally evil when not. I think my August also became like August, the character. This August I got the most highs, the most good, and the most lows, but I think this is for 2011 only. This month really changed me.
The highs, this month, I've made and rekindled my friendship with most of my friends and acquaintances. Got drunk, learned Aikido, lost more weight, got Makati City on my mind city map, made more job done (though there's still more, but I am more determined to finish them all), and I think for the first time, ... never mind.
Which brings me to my extreme low, I think I fell in love or I think I liked a guy. And I wanna diss it out already. I think it'll lead me to nowhere, and I don't want to waste time liking the guy. It's sad. I think this is the farthest I've gone in an attempt to get the guy I like. But, well, maybe I'm just closing the doors, or I dunno. I think, for now, it's best to accept that we'll just be friends, and if something develops from there on. I think it won't be any soon. This feelings just fuels me to move - To go with the highs. It feels good. I feel recharged.
August is just another month of the year. I guess, there's still more in store for me this coming 2011. I have two trips coming up, birthday, christmas and new year. So many things to look forward to.
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